Passionate

Last week I was featured in the Upper Room Daily Devotional. I wanted to share the entry here with you.

Let us examine our ways and test them, and let us return to the Lord.
Lamentations 3:40

I have been married for twenty years. I am passionate about my husband. I look forward to seeing him at the end of the day. I love to cuddle and talk things over. I enjoy making a favorite dinner for him.

I have been married for twenty years. I am indifferent about my husband. I don’t want to talk in the evening I’d rather do my own thing. There’s nothing tasty to make for dinner.

Both of these are honest views of my marriage. Over a lifetime together we’ve gone through all kinds of phases. I can say the same for other facets of my life: as a worker, as a mom, and as a Christian.

Sometimes I am passionate about Christ. I crave his presence. I take joy in his work. I am on fire. And sometimes I am indifferent. I lose heart. I doubt and question. Faith is difficult.

When I hit an indifferent phase in my marriage I know it doesn’t mean divorce. Still it could lead to trouble. I try to regroup. I try to figure out how I got off track. I start my way back with something as simple as remembering my good manners. Using “Please” and “Thank you” again helps me change my attitude.

When I am indifferent to Christ I find my way back in baby steps as well. Counting my blessings is a good start. Confessing my indifference helps too. God will never divorce me. He loves me passionately. I am the one who has to find my way back.

Posted 5/30/2007 @ 6:54 PM | Weekly Thoughts